Ups and downs

I'm sorry for not writing much these days.  I didn't expect things to be quite as tough.  When we decided to embark on this new career, we didn't know what to expect.  We are both very new at this.  Although I have had many thoughts about making cooking a career, I didn't expect to go through with it.

But we are now in the thick of things.  Every day, we have things to discuss, people to meet, stuff to check  out, things to do...our to-do list keeps getting longer.  And, since the time we acted on our dream until now, we have had gone through countless ups and downs.  The downs are whenever we got rejected for something, or finding out something costs more than we expected or that we needed to fulfill some rules or regulations about something - they are very strict here about food so there are lots of rules we have to adhere to.

The ups are when something goes our way, or finding bargains, or helpful people or when we received good feedback about our food. It has been months since we started this journey and the ups and downs have really tested our faith, patience and hope.  But it's great that we both support each other very well.  We both have very different opinions some times and that sometimes make our discussions quite heated and unpleasant but by keeping calm and being objective, we get through and are able to move on.  

For now, we are not physically tired since we have not opened for business yet, but the ups and downs can take a toll on us mentally.  When that happens, I just feel like lying in bed at night, cuddle up to Pete and hope things will get better the next day.  I didn't know starting your own business can be so tough.  But we will keep calm and carry on.  

There are fun days, such as shopping for kitchen equipment, photo shoot of our food and recipe testing so we are enjoying the process overall.  Also, I have quit school.  I am supposed to take my national test for course D in a few months but I have missed many lessons since I needed to attend meetings and such.  I couldn't log in the hours in school so it's better to just quit and study on my own.  Pete and I speak more and more Swedish now - not as much as we should, I feel - so I'm improving a little.  I hope to be more fluent when we open for business so I can speak Swedish to our customers. 

Hmm...I guess since I have more time now that I'm not going to school, I should write more here.  I will try, ok.  So watch this space :)