No words

After my family left, life in the household slowly went back to normal - cleaning the apartment, cooking 3 meals a day, tending to the plants in the balcony and in the garden and catching up on TV shows.  We were also busy with getting new furniture and appliances with the cash and gift vouchers we got from generous and thoughtful guests at our June wedding. 

And with all that flurry of activities, I pushed my daily blogging aside.  I tried to write.  I did.  Many amazing things happened to me during this last month that I wanted to write about - our summer wedding, my family's visit, the garden's update, my first birthday celebration here, my first solo train ride, and many more but when I sat in front of the laptop, or when I try to string sentences together in my head as these events unfolded (that's what I'll do so that it's easier for me when I start to type), no words came to my head.  I had writer's block (I use this term loosely as a few blog entries do not make me a writer).

In my head, I wanted to write poignant pieces about how amazing my two families are during the days of the wedding and how sweet it was to spend a nice afternoon with Pete's mum and sisters during my birthday.  I wanted to share my excitement when I found not one, not two, but four small, green tomatoes on the plants in the balcony.  I wanted to vent my frustration when I found I had two packages waiting for me at the post office but couldn't claim it as they didn't think I showed enough proof that I was the rightful recipient.

But words escaped me then. 

I typed the first few words and deleted them.  Repeat the process a few more times and then I shut down the computer in frustration.

I didn't know why.  Maybe I felt a bit abandoned when my family left.  Maybe I felt homesick.  Maybe I felt lost since I finally had no tasks or list of things to do for the days ahead.  I might be looking forward to the wedding and my family's visit and when both events were over, I felt lost.

Anyway, I'm back today.  Perhaps I shall try to write shorter posts and not be too clever or too ambitious with the posts.  For now, I need sleep.  Hopefully in the morning, I shall find more words, or if I'm lucky, a quick, short post, at least.  I have hope :)